Am I ready for my future?

I was Facebook-ing and I found a link to an aviation school. It is supposedly the #1 flying school in the Philippines. It is however based in Cebu and Texas. If I were to enter this particular flying school, I would be away from my family and friends for a few months. And then, if I successfully graduate, I would have to find an airline. I am not guaranteed to work in Philippine Airlines since they have their own products from their own flying school. So most likely, I would have to apply to foreign airlines. That would mean that I’d have to be based in another country. I thought about it long and hard and I don’t think I can do that. I am so dependent on my family and even more on my friends. I cannot imagine leaving the Philippines and being away from them. I am not independent at all! Just thinking about it makes me tear up. I am so scared of what the future holds!!! I am going to need someone with me in journey! I cannot go on alone!

Brainstorming session for the book

Light waves the earth a momentary farewell, the sky darkens. The sun sets creating a silhouette of four figures grasping one another. A wonder to behold from a distance. But these 4 are special. Hidden behind the shadows they portray are novels of friendship, loyalty, pain, hardships, sacrifices, enlightenment, perseverance and success.

This is a story about four people, coming from different places, with diverse histories, living different lives, brought together by random chances of fate. This is not a story with fictional characters, nor one with a fairy tale ending. This is a simple story. A story of friends, going through life like any typical teenager. Often we read books of magic, wonder and love. But rarely do we find books based on reality. And what is more real than a story of college kids facing a glimpse of the real world, have a taste of what freedom is about and learning to make the right choices that will define their future? This is as real as it gets. Many of you will see yourselves in parts of this book. What makes this story unique from yours however, are the choices we made along the way. And those decisions are what has shaped us into what we are now. So come join me as I share with you my experiences, our experiences. My name is Julian, and welcome to our story.

AAAAH ITS BEEN TOO LONG!!!

Been over a year since I've posted a blog entry. I have a new mission! To write a book! Hahaha!!!

21

Last night, I went to my good friend Eena's debut. It was amazing btw! EENA YOU WERE AMAZING!!! Although it was just me and ton, we had fun. All night ton was reminding me that I was about to turn 21! Haha! Thanks a lot buddy! Ass! Left the party at around 11:30, took a cab home. I was in the cab when it turned 12:00. My mom and dad texted me happy birthday. I thought that was really sweet. I was trying to hold back my tears while I was in the cab. When I got home, Chase greeted me. He had a note attached to his doggy shirt, it said, "Happy Birthday Kuya!!!" It was really cute. I was about to go upstairs na when my family suprised me. They were hiding, just waiting for me. It was REALLY a surprise! I love my family so much! The sang me a song and gave me presents. I didn't ask for expensive gifts coz I know money is hard to come by and my dad's saving for my tuition for flying school. My dad gave me an iTrip which was awesome! My mom gave me a jacket, and some clothes which i really needed. And my sister bought me these kick ass earphones which i also really need when I'm running. After all the commotion, we all headed up. Then my friends called to greet me. They were all probably drunk but they didn't forget to greet. I really appreciated it. This was the simplest birthday I've had but definitely the most special one so far.

It's my birthday now! And it's raining crazy hard! I'm supposed to go to this orphanage in Tagaytay today but it's not looking too good right now. I really want to go coz I've been waiting to do this for quite some time now. I know it sounds too cheesy but I sincerely want to help out less fortunate people, especially the young ones. (Yes, the young ones, for I am young no more) They are the future of this wonderful nation. I don't want them to feel alone. I want them to feel that there is someone cares for them. I want them to know that they are important and that there are people in this world who still help out their fellowmen. I want them to know and feel these things coz I want them to do the same one day. Good people are a rare commodity nowadays. Haha. I want to be one of them. I've been alive in this earth for so long, yet, I haven't done anything that has made a significant effect on another human being. I want to feel what it feels. Coz i know it's a special feeling.

It's June 22. 21 years ago, my mom brought me out into this world not knowing whether I'm gonna be the next Philippine president, or a doctor, or a drug addict. She just brought me out, showered me with love and support and introduced me to the world. Letting me wander off must have been a scary feeling for them. They did not know who I'd meet, who would influence me and those sort of things. Now that I look back, I think my parents have done an excellent job in bringing me up. I have morals, I have manners and I am God-fearing. Those are the key things that they have instilled in me. In terms of the people I choose to surround me, I think I did a good job on that. All of my friends are good people. They are not perfect but they are good. I am truly thankful for that. I am very very thankful for everyone who has joined me in my journey of life. Each and everyone I have interacted with is a part of me. They have molded me into what I am. Now, I don't know with you guys, but I think I grew up to be a pretty decent guy. And that's another thing I am thankful for. So I really just want to thank everyone in my life! Especially my family and friends!!! THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME WHAT I AM TODAY... Every piece of me.

21... I'm finally 21! I'm not sure if I'm happy or sad that I'm 21. It's such a crossroad. It's the farewell to teenage life and the introduction to adulthood. I have mixed emotions about it. I mean, I definitely miss being 16. When i was 16, all I had to think about was what fun thing there was to do next. Practically, no worries at all, about money, studies, life. Now that I'm 21, I am obliged to worry about money, studies and life! This is it! This is me about to enter the real world. I don't think about inumans and parties anymore, I think about school, graduation and work. It's definitely a big change and I didn't even feel it. It was just last week when I was talking to my friend, Wale, when I saw all these changes in me. It felt good sharing the same experience with my friends. It made me feel "not alone" while I'm going through all these. It feels awesome that I have people around me to join me in my journey. I was also texting with Tep, my beefy just a while ago and we where talking about transition and change. Then she said she's glad i turned into a fine fellow. I really really appreciated that compliment. THANKS BEEFY! I'm glad someone appreciated the person I have grown up to be.

Here and now, I begin a special chapter in my life. I'm planning to make the most of it.

"ESTROBOY"

Tinext ako ni Geoff kanina. Sabi nung message:

"I am Estroboy"




-ER

Hahaha!!! Kaya ginanahan ako gumawa ng kalokohan. Sorry ER!