Found the push I needed

A month or so ago, I blogged about not wanting to leave because there are people that are going to be left behind. But just very recently, something happened and I realized that people in our lives come and go, very few remain. We lose people and discover new ones. This was the final push that I was looking for. Now, I want to go, explore, push boundaries, step out of my comfort zone, look what is outside the box. And I am so excited! I feel like this is so important to me. This will help me grow. This will widen my horizon. Graduation is this Saturday already. A few weeks after, I start flying school. I am really hoping that my dad sends me to OMNI, which is what I believe to be the best flying school in the Philippines. If I go to OMNI, I will be living full time in Clark, Pampanga which will be an excellent change of scenery, and I will be getting the best education. This is it! It is so close. I am going to miss my friends but I NEED THIS. Time to grow up. I can’t just sit around waiting for things to come easy or for someone to hand it to me. I have to get off my ass, explore, and reach for what I want. I know that things are uncertain, but the uncertainty excites me. I CANT WAIT!!!

Life Progress

A month ago, I had no idea where my life was going. I was so afraid to graduate because I did not know what my next step would be. I was headed for a brick wall of nothingness.

Last week though, my dad finally agreed to let me enter flying school!!! It was not expected, because whenever I asked him about it before, he’d always tell me to work for another year or so then go to flying school. When he agreed, the emotion I felt was incredible. I had never felt so excited in my life! Flying is what I want to do for the rest of my life!!! I am about to live my dream!!! I am already working on my application for a student pilot license. We’ve also been going around, checking out flying schools. Luckily, the owners of some of the good flying schools are my dad’s friends so hopefully, we can get a good deal. I am going to be studying for around 6-8 months. The tuition will probably cost about a million so it really is a big investment. I think my dad was unsure before if I was really into flying but when he saw that I had interest, all his worries went away. When we went to get my license, he saw some of his friends who were pilots as well. I could see the pride in his eyes whenever he’d introduce me and tell them that I will also be studying to be a pilot. I am proud as well. And I am happy to make him proud. I know I won’t fail because I know I want to do this. Yesterday, I had my exit interview with my guidance counselor. She asked me why I had trouble with school and how can I be sure that I won’t have the same problem in studying flying. I told her that in CSB, I did not know where I was gonna land after studying my course. My goal was to graduate but after that what next? I could not see what was at the end of the tunnel. But in flying, I have a vision, a mission and a goal. I see what I have to reach. I see what I will become. I see what my life will be. And it excites me so much!!! I’m still not sure where I’m gonna learn flying. Choices right now are: Clark, Dumaguete, Mindoro or Bulacan. Of course I’ll be sad to leave my friends and family but this is what I have to do. I will be a better man after this, a successful man!

I CAN TAKE WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS

I've been thinking... And I realized that life is really like this... People are meant to go their separate ways... We all have our own dreams to reach and sometimes it means we have to take different directions... I know what I want. And I will take that road. But my friends will always be with me... In my heart and in my mind... I'm ready for the future! BRING IT ON!!!

Am I ready for my future?

I was Facebook-ing and I found a link to an aviation school. It is supposedly the #1 flying school in the Philippines. It is however based in Cebu and Texas. If I were to enter this particular flying school, I would be away from my family and friends for a few months. And then, if I successfully graduate, I would have to find an airline. I am not guaranteed to work in Philippine Airlines since they have their own products from their own flying school. So most likely, I would have to apply to foreign airlines. That would mean that I’d have to be based in another country. I thought about it long and hard and I don’t think I can do that. I am so dependent on my family and even more on my friends. I cannot imagine leaving the Philippines and being away from them. I am not independent at all! Just thinking about it makes me tear up. I am so scared of what the future holds!!! I am going to need someone with me in journey! I cannot go on alone!

Brainstorming session for the book

Light waves the earth a momentary farewell, the sky darkens. The sun sets creating a silhouette of four figures grasping one another. A wonder to behold from a distance. But these 4 are special. Hidden behind the shadows they portray are novels of friendship, loyalty, pain, hardships, sacrifices, enlightenment, perseverance and success.

This is a story about four people, coming from different places, with diverse histories, living different lives, brought together by random chances of fate. This is not a story with fictional characters, nor one with a fairy tale ending. This is a simple story. A story of friends, going through life like any typical teenager. Often we read books of magic, wonder and love. But rarely do we find books based on reality. And what is more real than a story of college kids facing a glimpse of the real world, have a taste of what freedom is about and learning to make the right choices that will define their future? This is as real as it gets. Many of you will see yourselves in parts of this book. What makes this story unique from yours however, are the choices we made along the way. And those decisions are what has shaped us into what we are now. So come join me as I share with you my experiences, our experiences. My name is Julian, and welcome to our story.